About

On December 27, 1997 at the age of 17 my world was completely turned around. I was pregnant with my first child, my first love, My Connor. He came into this world on August 25, 1998 to a very scared young girl.  He was the best big brother to Kyle, Anna and Alton. He was our wild child, our lover of dogs, our compassionate child and our brilliant child. 

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In his adolescents he struggled with defiance, ADHD, he was bullied and struggled to fit in.  As a young adult he developed an addition to drugs. In September 2021 he was on his way to recovery, found Jesus and wanted a clean and sober life. He was ready to live the life we knew he deserved. He completed a 45 day treatment program and was living in a sober living community with his "brothers" and still in an intensive outpatient program. He was also on a health journey not only mentally but physically. He was determined to heal his body and mind. I decided to come along the physical journey with him and we really enjoyed sharing our successes, research and meal ideas. 

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On December 6th, 2021, my world changed forever, Connor left this earth. In the middle of his healing journey, thriving, he had a moment of weakness and relapsed. He thought he was taking 1 pill of oxy, but what he got was a lethal amount of fentanyl laced in this pill, and it took his life. Sometime in the early morning of December 6th, 2021, Connor, my baby took his last breath, alone on the couch of his sober living home. 

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At 8:37am, I received a call a mother NEVER should receive. "There is no easy way to say this, Connor died this morning" 

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Walk with me as I share raw and truthful feelings and real experiences of my worst nightmare coming true.